16.Back home

After what seemed like a fun but long day in office , I was on my way home.The traffic seemed dense again , time went by pretty slow , I opened my book and began reading it in the bus...It seemed like the most interesting thing happening right now!!

On the station I met an old friend , she complimented my dress and said it was looking great...well..the irony of it all..!! I smiled at her and went my way.

Reached home...literally dropped my bag on the floor..sat in my chair and just took in a deep breath.It dawned on me that I was maybe a fool...looking for satisfaction from a mirage..from an idea which may just be the opposite of reality..too much philosophy na??!!... :)

I decided to at least try to put the past behind...like I cud!!..well.no harm in trying!!...had my dinner and opened my books to finally do something constructive...

15.Withdrawal Symptoms

It was over , the excitement , the nervousness , the sense of anticipation and Iwasn't exactly glad that it was..!! Yeah..I sound like a loser..do I??!!Well, it was fun though...almost like a child waiting for an ice-cream and then realising dat the store isnt open today..hmm

I went back to my workstation , did my work, my concentration levels were amazing.I was glad that it happened the way it did...any other way and it would have been just too good to be true and I wudnt have believed it either and pinched myself to death realising it...haha

After work ,all of us decided to visit an ice-cream parlour and i had this most amazing chocolate sundae..I had a really nice time...we hung out,had loads of fun..just roamed about for some time..
the good mood was back again thanx to the chocolate and..I had my ice-cream after all..!!

14.Milke bhi hum na mile....

Finally , it was D-day.I woke up..full of hope..was unnecessarily smiling all thru the morning.Cudnt concentrate on tea or breakfast..was totally khalayon mein...

Got ready for work , wore my fave dress.Edged my way thru crowds , but somehow it was different today..didnt mind the crowds , the traffic didnt bug me..the commute didnt bother me...it went smoothly.

Reached office on time..cudnt wait to meet..'u know who'. Just then my senior walked in . I was suddenly out from my trance.An excruciating hour later we were to go see the bosses.Those new people were also expected dere...I almost heard my heart beat in my throat...

Stepped into the office where they sat..spotted the newcomers...the person in question!!!..had his back towards me.We were going to be introduced to them...My senior called out his name...

He turned....my heart almost did a back flip..and my thoughts went 'What!!..it cant be.who is dis....it cant be..the world seemed to disappear' With utmost effort I stood my ground..met them , all of them..my brain didn't register a single thing....

It was him but not him...it was somebody named 'u know who' but not 'u know who'.....

13.Office on my mind?!!

Reached office a little late , bad traffic as usual.Had dozed off in the bus listening to some soothing tunes...was ready to take on the work.

Opened for the day , saw developments from yesterday.Went to see my seniors after the morning session.There was a buzz in the office about new people joining..everybody was excited.Of course .. I mean..seniors are happy when new juniors join na..We kept on debating on who must've taken their interview , how will they be et al...

Back to my station..made a few calls to my colleagues ....my senior made a sudden appearence..
She came and told me ..this new guy from out of towm is joining office..his name is...hold ur wits..."u know who" !!!
What the h**k I thought to myself....

I was too shocked to even react.I asked her again..who exactly is joining office??!! I was just stunned..sort of frozen..she said that he will join tomorrow and we will meet him...I just cudnt believe it..wow!! , I thought.
Just could not wait for tomorrow...was flying..felt like I was high or something :) ...

12.Visions and Illusions

Was travelling by bus the other day , 9 in the morning, the bus was totally packed..the AC was whizzing at the loudest decibel possible, looking out of the window observing..life....Just then like a flash of lightning something hit me unexpectedly..(is it a plane ..is it a bird..no its....superman..hehe)

I thought I saw someone there, saw 'u know who'..or I thought so.It was already late for office.Total dilemma..shud I get off and see or shud I just let go...is this God's gift or just an illusion.Tried to get a better view ..almost got up from my place..was totally restless , and unsure of what to do next..hell..never been like dis before!!

So, I reasoned it out with myself...maybe its him..maybe its not !!
If I get off either i see him and say what..Hi , how r u...during rush hour...in the morning??that wud've been so stupid!!

And if I get off and dont meet him or if its not him , then , first of all make a complete fool of myself going after who cud be an axe murderer.. ;) and..get fired in office for getting late .

So it was a lose-lose situation..haha..common sense prevailed ...I plugged in the MP3 , closed my eyes and drifted off to the neverland of 'what cud have been'..haha

11.Broken Hopes

Things happen, things dont
they hurt me,you, they wont
'tis a war, 'tis a crime
'tis a sound divine

Listen to it , before its too late
Before u give up , and surrender to hate
before u wither, before the world ends
make an effort , isnt it human to mend?

10.Troublemaker

What do u do wid a person u like..but s/he always falls short of your expectations?That is..they sometime surprise you wid attention and care but other times they are just too curt widout any reason.

It is very difficult to go on forgiving someone forever , but the distance makes you give them the benefit of doubt for every stupid and unbecoming behaviour of theirs.

But u cant help but wonder if it is something else or a very apparent character flaw....

Then the best policy is to bide your time till something happens that takes you to either forgiveness or doom.